Dealing with something EXTREME please help?

ok so basically my whole life has been about meds my parents drugging me up so i could never have a life so i went into a depression cuz of all this when i was 14 and had it for 3 years and didn't go to school and had truency cuz of it and when i was 17 they put me on 500 mg of serequel that ****** up with my chakras... then i was doing meditations to try to help myself get back to normal cuz im tired of not being me and ppl saying im crazy and i have a mental illness having to be in hospitals for 2 years cuz they didn't know what was wrong with me which sucks cuz i just wanted to go to high school and all that but then these meditations worked a little bit but opened my third eye up like more than usual and gave me like a psychic ability and i don't want it cuz it makes me feel like not myself and not like other people its just very strange and i just wanna be myself again but these meds really messed with my system i feel like crap please someone tell me what i should do no rude comments ok thanks.